dinner with grandma.

Today is my mama(grandma) birthday! Went dinner her and my parents. I can't speak can.:( so can't communicate with her. Damn tired. Tmr got training. Not enough sleep! Now what i need is digest my food bathe and sleep please.
Now still on the way back home from bukit batok. Shall sleep in the car now. Goodnight.
Always be my baby.(the song keep replaying on my mind.)

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When u're bored what will u do?


Eat like this guy!!!

Heehee... Now i feel like there's nothing to do at all.
After trng come back go work.
It takes away half of my holiday seriously.
And working everyday from 6-10 take away HALF of my days too.
So what can i do?

I WANNA GO OUT SO BADLY!:(
I wanna enjoy my life so badly.
I wanna have party so badly.
I wanna go overseas so badly.
I wanna have a bf so NOT BADLY.=x
I wanna have a goal in my life so badly,
OTHER THAN STUDIES!
I wanna do something that i'm really interested in so badly.
Everything i'm doing now like always wrong.
ALways get scolding for doing things.
Whats the point of letting me do it?!
Just flunk it la. Who cares SO BORING LA!
NOT INTERESTED IN ANYTHING ANYMORE.
F OFF LA! IDIOT!
If things are easy how good will that be.
If i know whats right and whats wrong i wouldn't be here.
So human make mistake why do u have to be so harsh?!
Like i no feelings like that...
Why am i spoiling my mood by thinking of stuff thats PAST...=.=
But no choice have to face HIM again.
Whatever hate him or like him still like that.

I miss my life!
I miss my friends!
I miss my dog!
I miss my brother!
I miss myself!
I miss my passion!
I miss my interest!
I miss everything in my PAST LIFE...
Forget it. Accept everything now..
Goody-bye...

i look back to my blog posts...
There's alot of things i had done.
There's alot of friends made changes.
There's alot of things we gone through.
And alot more...
I dun wan to have any regrets anymore.
Things thats done can't make changes.
Things we have not done its fine just leave it...
Now what i have to do is look forward to things that i can do
and things that will not make me regret.:)

Omt i feel like drinking to make myself high so i will be happy? Lol.
Okay i talking craappp. Ignore.
GOODNIGHT!

If you live your life in fear,

I'll wait a thousand years

Just to see you smile again.

Exercise + girl bonding with love = fabulousm

Exercise + girl bonding with love. =fabulousm (L)

I was damn tired when training but cycling with you was like not tiring...:D

So u are the pills that make me feel not tired! Hahahha.

Oh and i think i did something wrong.:(

Sorry... I will ask phoebe to edit that post.

Just now while looking surfing the net

suddenly some deep thoughts came into my mind...

And the feeling was there a real sad feeling... I have no idea why..

Whatever it's. Put this aside.

I even wasted my 15mins to attack u in court.

I hate you seriously so badly. U can be so different.

But its none of my business anyway.:)

No matter how hard i tried not to talk about it, you will still think of it.

And most of the things is linked... Its really hard. I'm so tired of it.

I really need a rest from everything.

Goodbye.:)

Hhahaha. My blog chio not chio not?xD I just took 30min to change my blogskin.
Its so easy! Can change anytime cause i didn't put others link
so just change the background and its done!:D
Need leave for training soon.:(
So damn tired can.
Okay la i better go get ready now before i'm late.
GOODBYE!:D

I bought my school bag. Okay i know its still early.
But i just have the feeling like its 1wk later?
Idk i just so afraid of going back to school.
Not the people there is the books there and the board there.
It will really make me so damn bored of things and tired of it.=x
Nobody love it too i guess. I love holidays seriously.
U get a chance to go out often with the people that all along u wanted but no chance to.
U can do alot of things that u wanted but no time to.
U can go anywhere u wanted but no freedom to.
SO NOW is the chance, time and freedom!:D
Get everything done. Actually i dun really know what can i do.
Maybe the only place i wanna go is marina barage? Whatever its.
I just want to have some gathering with my pri school friendsssss.
Need do some catch-up with ahpa and ahma too...:(
Miss them! I better go sleep now. Or else tmr i will die during training. GOODNIGHT!:D

LOSE WEIGHT!!! Lol. i can't eat alot of things now.:(
So wish i will really lose weight. Hungry for the whole night..:(
And now i can't sleep cause need to meet phoebe
after that meet yongwei for lunch dinner?
So i slept for 3 hrs like that only?! Lol. But worth it.^^
Chatted with amanda alot ytd night. Love her for everything!:D
Now i'm thinking whether should i go sleep or continue using comp.
Cause later meeting phoebe at 11am now already 10am and my hair have not dry yet.
So can't go to bed.:( I'm so gonna sleep all day long TMR!
Ok. Goodbye!:D Will blog often as days are getting more and more "EXCITING" uh...

Omg i'm so damn freaking tired but i'm so damn freaking excited too!xD
AND of course i'm so damn freaking scared!!!:(
Hahaha. Ok. Idk what i typing. Too tired..
Later going out soon and gonna be excited much!!! heehee.
Nothing much to say actually. Just feel like blogging.=x
I realised i have a habit is to be late. Hahahah.
I better go prepare now! GOODBYE!:D

Yesterday went out with lovely mummy(Ex TUITION TEACHER).xD

Hahhaha!!! Its fun to go out once in awhile!:D

Its good to spend my time with her too! Heehee.

I can give u all my time for u to forget things that u want to.

I have alot of time for now. As its holiday!

Other than training.:(

Later got training again.. JiaJie JiaYou!

I really hate that feeling when

it comes to a point where i dun know what to do next...

Shags la. Things went so wrong nowadays?

I really wish time will heal everything. EVERY SINGLE THING.

Goodbye!:)

Omg. Training is really killing me for now.
I think i will die when training is back to school
cause we will have to run ard the school.
So i better treasure it now.:(
Cause of training i can't eat lunch with u.
I dun mind can't digest as long as we can meet!
Cause its like ages since we met each other. IMY!
Nvm.. After afew wks training will be in the morning.
I guess by that time i will be complaining why isit so early...
SHAGS la. Anyway will meet up real soon.:)
SOON SOON!:D Can't wait. Too many things i need do.
I'm playing a fool with my holiday.xD
Heehee. But i will spend my time wisely.
Will make it free just for u.xD
GOODBYE!:D

Where's the cheerful me?
Why can't i hide myself deeply down in my heart.
Why must i show my mood and spoilt yours.
Really sorry.:(
I have no idea what i'm thinking.
Deep thoughts no.
Deep feelings no.
And i just tears for nothing.
What a childish stupid girl i'm...
Whatever... Goodnight.
Wish my eyes wunt be swollen tmr.
Or else i will not go school.
Goodnight.
Hiding...

It feels totally wrong. I have no idea why.
This should not be the feeling.
NO NO NO. Ok why should i care anyway.
Yah ok leave it aside!:D

AWESOME NIGHT!:D
Watched "The haunted school"
Maybe i gonna stay home the whole day today
As i'm DAMN TIRED! But might find show to watch ^^
Or maybe will go play pool with friends.
Like finally i enjoy my holiday! Lol.
My virgin night staying over at friend's house!
I guess i messed up yw's hse.:( Hahahhaha!
Whenever she come my house is help me clean up,
And whenever i go her house is help her mess up!xD
Hahahah. We took quite some pictures! FUN!
She DON'T take picture with people de. FEEL SO HONOURED!=x
We still share things! Wanted to ask ziling but she didn't reply my msg.:(
Ok la i try go slp soon and the weather is like SO NICE can!(RAINING)
Goodnight!

I keep showing my temper nowadays. Wtf?

I can't control myself anymore.

I used to be a very happy girl who love to put a smile on people.

But now? Showing my anger to people..:(

Omg. This is horrible and it hurts big time.

And i thought that i have found myself today

And i thought that i had control

All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment i didn't need anyone.

Whatever. Please dun ask me abt it.

Or talk to me. I'm damn tired.

Yup people change as they grow.
So u have changed to a person
who i totally feel like stranger.
I dun knw u well at all now.
Not even single bit of you now.
I used to think of how u are LAST TIME.
And its really fun with u ard LAST TIME.:)
Thanks for the memories...

HELLO!!! Tmr EBS! Know what?!
I'm not studying! Omg.
Abit kan jiong.. I wanna get B for EBS.:(
But i gues i can't cause no matter how hard i study,
it will not be good grade cause this few chap i dun really know.:(
Wish tonight can really chiong for what i really need.:D
WISH ME LUCK!xD
Goodbye!

When u said that no use telling me cause i can't help,
I will just dun give a damn abt anything anymore...
I will just ignore...
Too bad u just said that so why do i have to care.=.=
I just wish u will stop talking to me. That will be the best thing.:)
I will be thankful for that... I guess u wouldn't even read this.
Cause u dun have link...
Wasting my time. But whatever its.
When u said everything and said no use telling me den just fk off.
I hate it when people say things halfway. Like wanna say/don't want say
Goodbye.

Sucks. Boring.
Phone send for repair. Getting it back later!:D
Wish it get better!
ESCAPE THEME PARK TMR! HAHAHA!
Since classmate have tickets why not go and enjoy.^^
Study when i'm back home.:D GOODBYE!:)

Yes. U changed. FUCKING CHANGED TO A DIFF PERSON.
Whatever its.. Its not the one that i used to talk to.
Wtf is happening... Nvm. Not giving a damn.
Fuck it..

W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R!
Just STFU la hor.
Calm down before talking to me.
Hate people while attitude that time
den come talk to me as if i'm in the fault like that.
Even if i'm in the fault its not PURPOSELY right.
I explained and u just dun give a fking damn.
What for i explain in the first place.
Whatsoever... Go ahead and think things that u wanna it to be.
No point explaining to u anyway...
Wait till u calm down den talk to me.
Not going to spoil my mood just cause of few words...

Just when i'm reaching towards it u just give up.

The way there its just getting tougher and tougher.
People are slowly giving up and getting slower and slower towards the goal.
Some just dun knw how to treasure it when their road not even tough.
They should go through the tough road and
so they will treasure the smooth and nice road.
After all its just bias uh...

You're freaking obsessed to it,
till u dun even realised that
things are distance from you.
Go ahead and being obsessed to that.:)
Goodluck. Goodbye and goodnight.:D

For a moment i felt happy.
Within 10 sec i felt differently.
This isn't what its suppose to be.
Privacy have to keep it private...:)

Thanks FRIEND.:)
Weird weird weird.
Just that and nothing more.
Goodnight.

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love the way you lie.

ENJOY MY DAY WITH THEM!:D
Even though some emotional.xD
BUT STILL THANKS TO ALL OF THEM FOR MAKING ME ENJOY MY DAY WITH A BRIGHT SMILE!:D <3!

Thank you to all my friends who wishes me!:D

Really very happy with it!

Will never forget today!:D

Hahahah! Every moment is important.:)

I have nothing to say...
Tmr got friendly JIAYOU!:)
Goodnight.

Felt tired...

Sweet dreams dun stay long.

I dreamt of "you" which idk who's that.

The feel u gave me was perfect. Its that feeling i'm looking for.

Its damn nice and sweet!!!=x But its just a dream will never ever come true.

You're just so lovely in the dream.:)

I wish i will stay at that moment man!:D

BRING ME TO DREAM! Haha.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!:D
They make the diff. They really do.
They dun give us up easily.
They encourage us to do things.
They make our days.
They are just part of our life.:D
We see them almost everyday and 3/4 of our days are in school.
So we see them more than we see our relative.
So teachers is very important to us!:)
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

Since the day we born out we fall

there's always people around you hold u.

But when u grow older there ain't people there,

ask whether u are fine... Perhaps they will try run as far as they could.

So show people that u will not fall no matter what.

Stand strong and build strong till the end.:)

Goodnight... Deep thoughts is great to relax mind..

I wish i can really be myself.:)
Love myself and care for myself.
Before loving others and caring others.
So just be myself! I am who i am.
Goodnight.

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears.

Sometimes, somewhere, something.
I just hate it whenever people dun understand me...
What do they know? Pissed off without knowing my reason?
Just let you be... Sometime plese try think before angry uh.
Goodnight.

Omg! This is really torturing!

Flu.. Tmr have to go out of house early.

Dying soon.):

Got photos to upload but not now.(:

GOODNIGHT!!!

I afraid of falling because i might not get up again.
I afraid of going long road cause i might stop halfway.
I afraid of disappoint people around me because they created me.
I afraid of doing things that i keep thinking "can't" when i can cause mentality must be prepared.
I just afraid of everything.
But if i dun try i'm doomed.
Life is suppose to be this way.
Fall and get up so will be stronger.
Going long road is for me to experience more.
Disappoint people around me but next time i will make them proud.
Always have to think "POSITIVE".
Never try never know.
SO JIAJIE! THINK POSITIVE, FIND SOLUTION AND SOLVE THE PROBLEM!:D
THANKS TO ALL WHO GAVE ME ADVISE!!!;]
Sarah lim u helped me alot alot alot thanks.:)
GOODNIGHT!:D

I wish ice-cream can cure me.
Sometimes just feel like eating things that will make me happy.
But sometimes it doesn't work.
I always feel tired.
When the day i dun feel tired anymore
is maybe the day when i will not be awake anymore.):
Ok nvm i always like to talk nonsense.=x
Bye!(: GOODNIGHT!
ICE-CREAM MAY CURE! Ice-cream i'm coming to haunt u tmr!!!:D

Sad monday):
I can't believe i cried so badly after watching ming xing zi gong dui.):
Its really very sad.. Ok now should go sleep le. goodnight.(:

Presue your dreams.
Have confident.
Work hard for it.
Don't take things for granted.

Its just useless.
Nobody will ever put it in mind.
Whatever its i'm not going to care.
Do whatever it is.
I am not going to give a freaking damn abt it.
Control... HAHAHA!
So funny.. Ok. goodnight..

Please don't ever lie to me.
Dun start if u haven.
Cause i just seriously hate people who lies.
Words that coming out from you wish its truth and not lies.

If words coming out from you is lies,

i had rather you not telling me the truth.

goodnight. Tired!

Hahaha see that!
When i am studying i have nothing to do will start playing with phone.=x
And whenever comes to exam my table will be this messy.):
Comp table switch to study table. But now is much more neat!:D Heehee!
Ok time to study! Sweet to keep me awake!;D
GOODBYE! Ending soon!
Mood: HAPPY!:D

Impossible is something. Not nothing..
Most of the things is impossible nowadays.
Goodnight (:
Its IMPOSSIBLE!

Oh damn...

JIAJIE is really dying soon.

Real soon. Feel damn stress.

This is the first time i'm so afraid of running like seriously.

Freak it man. This is going on and on. The only thing i can do is buck up?):

Thats it jiayou bah.

Please just stop falling into too deep.

It will never have a good ending...

Phobia of it will stay there for quite sometime.

So please please please do whatever to stop ok.

goodbye.

What if i tell you i love you?

"Instead of holding you, i was holding out.

I should've let you in, but i let you down."

This song keep going through MY MIND!!! (L)

THANKS TO SARAH! ^.^

HAHAHAHA! BREAK MY HEARTTTTT! (U)

I open but nothing get into my mind..

TSK! How i wish studying is in part of the songs.

Den i will just keep listening to the song!

Comfirm get into my mind!:D

But things just isn't that simple..):

Omg its so tiring nowadays..

Stress? Last time when i'm stress there's someone who cheer me up.

Now there's just comp/handphone that made me more stress.

Oh damn! I need break before really start studying man.):

2 more weeks to go there's no time to waste.

So time to wake up le..

In order to cheer people ard u, i myself must CHEER UP!:D HAHAHA!

Goodbye(:

Sharing is caring. But i dun see u sharing things with me.

I did't really bother to ask too cause i'm afraid that u ain't gonna tell me.

So yeap. Forget it..

I'm fine with everything and anything.

Not give a damn about anything and everything.

:D Hahahaha! I NEED A HUG!xD

Nothing better to do.):

Hmm tmr is monday again.. SCHOOL.

Wish this wk go fast!:D

GOODBYE!

Kinda disappointed.

You laugh, i laugh

You cry, i cry

You sad, i sad

and of course common sense.

u jump, i don't jump.
Lol! Thats a nice and dumb logic can!):
MUST U JUMP I JUMP!xD HAHAHAHAH!

Goodnight(:

Sometimes when you're bored things will run through your mind.
90% bad things and 10% good things..
Whatever its.
Sometime things changed real fast but just that did't wanna really go realise it.
Cause i know that if i really go care abt it, it will nvr be a happy ending.
So might as well just ignore and do nth abt it.
Let it just go. Things will come and go so let it go earlier than later.
And if its meant to be your, it will be yours.
So yup.
Life will nvr be easy. But still have to live on with it.
Jiayou JJ!:D

MY BB FOR LIFE!:D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!
LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT ALOT AFTERALL! Heehee.
Since today its your birthday so i did't stop you from s....... xD
Anyway wish u really really got surprise uh.xD
Hahahah! Did't expect it right.=x Heehee!
Anyway guess u're enjoying your day! SO DUN WORRY BE HAPPY!:D
Okay cya soon bye.(:

GOODBYE BLOG!:D

Today went east coast park with durene,meilin,ashly and christel!:D
We meet have lunch at hg point and took bus to parkway parade and alighted.
We walk from there to east coast!:D Its fun yeah{:
Rent bicycle and ride ard! SO COOL!
Can u imagine like so long nvr ride bicycle suddenly can ride so cool!:D
LOVE BICYCLE FOR LIFE!=x
Hahahahaha! After riding we went to parkway parade and walk ard!
I WENT G2000 to find my GF!:D
OMG! SO COOL TO SEE HER AGAIN! Love it ttm.{:
While walking home started to say some ....xD
Okay now i'm suppose to study but it seems like its time for me to sleep.
SO GOODNIGHT!:D

Enjoy the pictures!

While waiting.

Having lesson.=x

When ppl are in the prison.xD

(Trying to see 1,3 or 5 is the prisoner)=x

GOODBYE!:D