Tmr celebrating youth day.

It's a day to be yourself. So we can wear anything.

But other than shorts, revealing clothes and many more.

So actually simply just jeans n top with shoes..

That's not really ourselves i guess. xD

Normally girls will wear shorts top n slipper.

That's the simplest things to wear actually.

Aiyah. Actually if really being ourselves just wear pajamas and go school la.

That's the best of ourselves!^^ Haha.

I dun know what to wear..

Normally before i go out i will try out almost a few clothes

to make sure i look good in that mood den leave house.

So tmr morning i shall choose..

I'm having the urge to go cycling..

But the floor is still wet due to the rain earlier.

Oh and i realized that my words are getting sweeter.

NO WAY man... Cannot be this way!!!

I very long never drink sweet talk and eat sweets alrdy.

Okay la. I shall go study now. At least one chap to fulfill myself.

Everything must start from beginning.

And i saw my name on the board i get 2nd in class for MYE.

Shocking news. Cause i didn't did well for MYE.

But Prelim i will definitely try my best and Nlvl i will be like SUPERWOMAN!

Ohoh! Last min my mama came in and ask me go eat dinner now.

So study will postpone! Dinner cannot postpone!:D

GOODBYE!

First day of school. Kind of no aim.
Thought will have NEW SITTING ARRANGMENT.
End up bullshit. I'm back to EMO CORNER.
But at least didn't have much lesson today.
Other than science and cpa.
I thought of new way to keep myself awake.
Pinching myself but doesn't work.
I dun bear to pinch myself hahaha.
So science lesson accidentally doze-off.
But lucky ky slap my hand somehow i'm wide awake after that.
But not everytime work in that way actually.
Lesson time when body is tired mind can't control.
I tried before. I really talk to my mind but doesn't work.
Suppose to start studying now. But am tired. Feel like sleeping.

Oh and actually this picture is kind of random.
But seriously she's skinny n pretty!:D
I saw her on sat. Got event so i went just to see her.
Hahahaha. But i did some shopping and bought many things too.
Ok la time to rest. GOODBYE!:)

I miss you. You're special.
Return the watch that always ring at 12am and reminds me of you.
But now without the watch worst..
Idk what happened man. I want U-TURN.
Or go fast forward? I dun want to have feelings.
It sucks..

Yesterday night have BBQ with pri school friends.
FUN & HIGH. But not everyone attended.
Anyway pri school life really great.
Why didn't i cherish?
I just want them to stay with me. Isit hard?
Just THAT friends feeling and nothing more.
But why am i falling in so deep. It's tough.
I must believe in myself. After N's i make sure i enjoy everyday.
I might miss school, Teacher and people but OBVIOUSLY not BOOKS.

Nowadays must study but i dun bother to actually take my books out.
Cause i just need this LAST FEW DAYS to be enjoyable.
Is that hard? But i dun seems like i'm enjoying.
I just want my life back. Stay happy.
I find SOME people who are in love hurt more.
My friends tweet are getting more n more EMO.
But will it be my turn? I DOUBT IT.
Because i must believe in myself n get what i want.
That's what i actually learnt ytd.
Mahaesh told me a story.:)
Really like it very much, even though abit sort of scary.
But at least that guy get what he really once want before.:)
Controlling every words of now.
But seriously fc*k it.
Who give a damn. I shall just study and no big deal.
After N's make myself BUSY or else spend my days sleeping is fine too.
Just dun disturb me. Goodnight.
I'm not perfect.

CYCLING!
Special people at special place.:D
Was a tiring day out. Cycle alot of up and down hill.
It's really like roller coaster.
I almost die. Hahaha.
Nobody are injured so great!
Really have a great catch-up! Love them.
If u ask me who do i really trust i will say them.[other than family]
They make my day and make me stop thinking of useless stuff..
Next next mon will have gathering again. BBQ!
Excited much. After that might be staying over.
So next fri 17th Class BBQ with sec classmate.
20th BBQ with primary school classmate.
Woah. I will grow fat soon. Am fat anyway.:D

June holiday suppose to slim down end up gain gain n gain.
For the past one wk i have been watching dramas.
To improve my chinese but i can't read the CHINESE SUBTITLE at all.
Was too fast and their word and singapore is totally diff.
After all i just wish to get a chi tuition teacher.
Sweet, nice and pretty CHINESE tutor.
Hardly la..
Only bowen have such CHINESE teacher but not in bowen anymore.
So i'm just kidding.:)
I just need a tutor that can make me change in 3-4months?
Also kind of impossible. But i just want to learn how to READ.
Is that so difficult? Chi word ah chi word.. You know me but i dun know you.:(
I can speak so well and my that.... teacher give me so low mark.
Only cannot read. Angry max. Whatever la. Nobody's listening at all.
ORAL ORAL... What's the point when teacher not even listening.
Eng oral like that, chi oral also like that...
Whatever..

I want to start studying but... but... No excuses?
But... I really dun know how to start...
Once i think of start studying my mind will start to think of what show to watch.
Or i will sleep. Ok. Shall find time to study.
Since i got time nowadays to do many things.
I did jogging with my cousin, was fun even though halfway she cmi.
But while walking we talk alot like endless topics.
That's LOVE. hahahaha. Time for DRAMA!
Goodnight. SWEEEEEEETTTTT DREAMSSSSSS.
Will be waiting for my prince to appear in my dream again.
That's the sweetest dream, that will never feel in real life...

Give up really easy...
Lucky i did not stop there.
I continue. I'm really exhausted.
Disappointed much.. Whatever.
Good evening.:D
Everything is OVER... Time to not stress.:D
I shall go sleep! GOODNIGHT!:D

Tuesday is cross-country...
I'm not ready..
Wish that day weather will be good? Like going run but no lightning risks?
That will be the best weather for me to run!:D
Top 10... Isit hard? But no pain no gain.
So if i want to get trophy i must run like mad.
And make sure i feel the pain everywhere after the run.
But i guess when i reach there everything will pull me down.
Jogging should be very relax why am i so nervous?
Crap. This must be really important to me...
Whatever. I must help my team!:D BOWEN BADMINTON!
Overcome all the obstacles n people obviously..
I remember last year some part without tree really make me crazy.
But at least i didn't stop at all and i keep encouraging myself.:D
Am really proud. hahahahhaha! I WILL SHOW IT TO MR KEVIN LIM THAT I CAN!
MUST BE MORE AGGRESSIVE! AHHHHH!
Its time to SLEEP MORE N DRINK MORE WATER! (L)
GOODNIGHT!:D

Gambling Vs Shopping..
You have no money for me to go shopping.
So where did u get money to go gambling?
Shopping i get something home.
Gambling? Lose more n more..=.=
Can't i save my own money?
Everytime i say i no money u dun believe.
Just because i still keeping my ang bao money..
I dun intend to use any single cents of my angbao money..
U said lie to me. U told me after my facial will come find me.
Oh really? Yah right i went to the toilet came out and thought will see u.
Looking for u retardedly.. End up u telling me collecting money coming soon.
I was so furious abt it and went to amanda's house instead of waiting for u to cab down.
Totally unreasonable.. I'm even skipped my dinner.
Was really angry right now. Not sleeping. I shall have supper.
I have never off my phone just to avoid your call.
This is the first time. Warning. Or else i make sure i dun come home the next time.
Just now i really wish i get into accident and go hospital make u know your mistake.
U will never ever know your mistakes so totally pointless..
Very sorry i doubt so..
Today was totally a bad day.. Not my day. Tears are all over.
I dun feel like going to school.
I will break down anytime anywher tmr.
I'm sure my result will make me feel worst.
WHATEVER.. Goodbye. Dun ask anything..

Mermaid was once a story that in my life.
Beautiful and sweet lady who is nice n soft..
What abt real life? Ugly? Can't speak & communicate.
Nice?... Whats the point lying to children?
Why adults always say dun say lies when they are saying to their own kids...

I want to know every single reality...
Why do u have to ignore it and avoid it.
Why can't you just face it and at least reply str8 foward.
U should know abt it, it's very obvious.
Thanks for letting me being a fool for the past 1month 14days.
After so long i have believe and yet u make feel hopeless..
Whatever.. Not a MAN at all.
GO n CONTINUE FLIRTING.
I'm sure one day just that day will have KARMA..
I believe cause i now feeling it. Thankfully to you.:)
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. And THANK YOU VERY MUCH!:D

I just now was so upset that i talked to amanda n play childish games with her.:D
We went to cartoon network play game and addictiongames ah?
I can't rmb. But it was a good way. Make me feel like i'm still in 10-12 yrs old.
Really thanks her.:D LOVE HER LOTS... (L)
Fish & Drip story is always to be continue...
WILL NEVER BE THE END! :D

Today went blading with cy, dj, ws & FISH FISH!:D
hahahahhaha. Rollerblade so can't really talk much.
As we are not pro so we can't blade n talk at the same time.
Most of the time we will communicate by "wooowooowoooo"[falling down]That's not me!
Or "ahhhhahhhahhh"[down slope]
Oh and of course "OMG!"[when somebody falls]
Have a good vesak day after exam.
But now is 2.30 exam period i'm studying.
Not used to sleeping early after a LONG PERIOD OF EXAMS.
Tmr need go back to train. Stamina DROPPED!
I can run ard the school 3round 15mins?!
COKE UPP! Totally ridiculous. I know. SO I MUST TRAIN!
Cross country is GETTING NEARER!
SO GOODNIGHT! Tmr 8.30 trng.